Its here, my last day at home. My stomach is fluttering like it contains 1000 butterflies. Yesterday I thought I did not have much more to do and now today has hit I feel overwhelmed. The last load of washing is on, the bed is stripped, bags are lined up against the foyer wall ready to load and now last nights dream keeps whirling in my head.
I dreamt I walked into a ward and was talking to a lady on the left in her bed, as i talked I was aware that behind me in another bed a lady was about to die. I turned to see her holding a 3 month old giggling baby, but the woman looked, scary, wane, pale and deathly. A white light was shining on her and she at first looked evil-I was scared. As i approached her bed I casually said "oh she is dying" and I had a pit of fear in my belly. I was in awe and stood as she transformed into the most serene and happy person but she was still dying. I softly blew on her and guided her back to the pillow with my hand as she died.....and the baby she was holding shrunk from a 3 month old to a ball of smokey cloud in her lap.
I woke with a start, had sweat on my neck and I was immediately aware that the 3 month old was my dream of moving on (I have a 3 month contract). The old tired looking woman (me) had to die before the new life was allowed to come forth. I cant tell you how complete the detail was in this dream, I swear I was there and this morning I am at once filled with eagerness to greet the new stage of my life and also sad that it marks the end of motherhood/ my life as I know it. The last 24 years has been as a housewife and Mother and this adventure marks the end of being near my boys, the end of an era for me...and for them.
Wow, Just looked up Number 3 to see what it means in a dream...
"Three signifies life, vitality, inner strength, completion, imagination, creativity, energy, self-exploration and experience. Three stands for a trilogy, as in the past, present, and future or father, mother, and child or body, mind, and soul, etc. Dream of the number three may be telling you that the third time is the charm".
